Remembering what is really important.

Lately, my positivity has jut not been where it is normally. I have not been doing yoga in the morning to start my day (which I have rationalized in my own mind that it is because of the surgery, even though I can do plenty of yoga without hurting myself). I have been very tired throughout the day, and just feeling very BLAH.
I know a lot of it has to do with the fact that I miss my best friend. He is all the way on the other side of the world. I miss him making me laugh. I miss him hugging me. I miss my babies . . .  I miss everything about them! (well almost everything) ;)

I found this today, and it made so much sense to me. I always feel so much better when I start the day like this. I know I haven't been and I also know that is a big part of my blah-ness.
I sure hope you get something out of this as well . . .  everyone deserves to wake up and greet the day with thankfulness!

1. Greet the day. I love being able to get up, and greet a wonderful new day. I suggest creating a morning ritual that includes saying thanks for your blessings. I’m inspired by the Dalai Lama, who said, ” Everyday, think as you wake up, ‘today I am fortunate to have woken up, I am alive, I have a precious human life, I am not going to waste it. I am going to use all my energies to develop myself, to expand my heart out to others, to achieve enlightenment for the benefit of all beings, I am going to have kind thoughts towards others, I am not going to get angry or think badly about others, I am going to benefit others as much as I can.’ “
2. Amazing start. I used to start my day by jumping out of bed, late as usual, and rushing to get myself and the kids ready, and rushing to drop them to school and come in to work late. I would walk into work, looking rumpled and barely awake, grumpy and behind everyone else. Not a great start to your day. Now, I have a renewing morning ritual, I’ve gotten so much done before 8 a.m., my kids are early and so am I, and by the time everyone else gets in to work, I’ve already gotten a head start. There is no better way to start off your day than to wake early, in my experience.
3. Quietude. No kids yelling, no babies crying, no soccer balls, no cars, no television noise. The early morning hours are so peaceful, so quiet. It’s my favorite time of day. I truly enjoy that time of peace, that time to myself, when I can think, when I can read, when I can breathe.

You know when you just have one of those "off" days?

Yeah, I know you know what I am talking about. That day where you wake up, and something is just not right in your head. You feel a little sad, but don't really have a reason to. You feel upset, but there hasn't been anything to upset you. You just feel sleepy and like you want to go back to bed  . . . I had a day like that today.

The closer and closer it gets to me going back home to my family, the harder and harder it is getting for me. I miss my husband and my girls so much! I feel so bad that I have to be away from them for so long, and feel completely pissed that because of this awful, the people that I love the most are suffering :(

My girls are so tough. It is amazing to watch them. They just roll with the punches! I mean, within the last 6 months we moved across the world, started a new school, new house, and had their mom diagnosed with breast cancer. They are such troopers! I miss them so much. It makes me proud to think that Joshua and I are raising our girls to be strong women, who will be able to handle challenges in life with grace!

I want to get back to my life, to my husband, and to my children. My heart is starting to ache too much.